Things get a little dim sometimes; lost in transition. You’ve got to take a moment every so often to get back what you hid in the shadows. Spinning and spinning until fragments of yourself fall, giving way to what lies beneath. Raw and vulnerable, without your shell, you have forgotten what it is to be guarded. The walls you used to keep high have disappeared and you can’t even place when it happened. You don’t even remember what it was like to be so withdrawn.
You had never known you could become so jaded. You never knew that it could go away either. But you did, and it has.
The world around you is just as cold and dangerous as before, but you don’t care. You see what is beautiful and you are basking in it. It can’t hurt you anymore. The lights are out, but you can see it all so much more clearly than before. The limitless horizon is open before you. Run into it. Don’t bother to look back, it’s all behind you now and what is to come can only be better. You weren’t supposed to stay behind if that’s not where you find yourself today. Move forward, let it go.
Those thoughts you’re having – the anxiety, the pain, the fear, the self-consciousness – let them go. You are who you are and that is all you need to be. Let yourself go, give into yourself and move to the beat of your passions. You won’t let anyone ever make you feel small again, you won’t even consider letting them.
The seriousness is all a joke, none of it really matters in the end. All that matters is that you smiled, if even just to yourself. A smile makes up for every bad thing in your day, every negative thought. When they come up, just smile. None of that matters, push it away with a smile and move on. People have a very hard time moving on from these small, simple nuances during their days and over time, these things accumulate into a darkness that sits inside. They put up walls and guard their hearts against the world so much so, that not even the good can get in anymore. Where did you go?